Troubled Times
‘My peace I leave with you… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid’ (John 14:27 NKJV).
It has been a very long long time since my last post. I considering this to be my journal. A little walk of faith. Nothing to do with this earthly world but rather to talk to Him about my hardest feelings.
And yes Lord, please hear me out. Just when I don’t know what to do and where to seek you, I turned to the newsletter that I subscribe from when Grace forward me a title that I still can remember vividly. It was called “Work In Progress”. The article was talking about having faith in You, Lord that You are still continue working in me. It has not yet to be complete and there is continuing the work until the day You will call me home.
I might not be the best son you ever had but I wanted to be considered as the prodigal child. The one that got lost. A lost sheep. In the vast sea of this earthly world. Everyone is trying to gain something out of these. But what is my role on Earth? I asked myself before, through the books, The Purpose Driven Life, Amazing Grace and stuff yet I couldn’t really understand. I couldn’t even comprehend what is in Your mind. I perhaps like the being, just being small.
Maybe I shouldn’t even try to understand but rather putting my faith in You. Calling out Your name. Attending the church services and cell group. Fellowship. Ermmm. And coincidentally, I am listening to this song, “returning home” by Eternity Girls. A gospel song. A perfect timing?
Yes. I couldn’t control what others will think. What they will act and reacted to certain circumstances. I can only do my own part. Have faith in Him. Pray and talk to Him. Yes. I feel You now suddenly. Hear my prayer for the night.
‘Lord, everything seems to be falling apart around me. Everybody wants a piece of me. There’s far too much to do and never enough time to do it. My head is clogged with all kinds of junk and my heart is ready to break. Lord, where are You? I feel like the disciples in the storm, the waves are too big for me. My cry is the same as theirs, “Somebody go and get Jesus – I’m about to drown out here!” Prince of Peace I need you. Father, who never slumbers nor sleeps; take charge. Let me find in You a quiet place, a place where I can pillow my head on Your breast, hear Your loving heartbeat and feel secure knowing You’ll work things out for me.
Lord, let me find in You the feeling of love. I just want to run into Your arms and cried out loud. I want to feel Your presence. All I know now is that I will feel safe being by Your side. I rest all my worries and troubles in Your hand. That You will plan the best things for me. Be it that I have to go through all over it again. I know You have the purpose for me. Lord Jesus, show me the light and the path I should go. And I will follow.
This I pray, believing, in Jesus’ name, amen.’